A familiar feeling met me at the end of those words - the warm sensation that travels from my wrist to my heart. But this time, there was a coolness that rested in my chest. It was pure happiness and appreciation.
No one had ever said anything so nice to me in my life. It was genuine. And every part of my being could feel it - could connect with it. I could feel tears well up in the crevices of my eyes waiting for a release that was halted by the wide smile my face had created in response to those humbling words.
She loves me. And I don't understand why.
If I had to carve out the man I would have for her, it wouldn't be me. The finest marble pulled from the most ancient, majestic tombs of Egypt aren't rare enough for her. She deserves the absolute best.
Don't get me wrong. I don't doubt God's plan in choosing me. I know I'll grow into the man she needs me to be. But I still stand in amazement at the fact that another human being can love me so fully and authentically. It truly serves as my reminder that God's love is far beyond anything I can think of or imagine.
Those words caught my attention. God spoke through her. He showed me his unconditional love by using her to be a beacon of romantic love. For this, I'll forever be grateful.
I've used the words "I love you" before and they have held no more than the weight of the lightest feather. But I say them now with my whole heart. I can't wait to be married to her much longer either. It's almost as if a part of me is missing.
I reflect back months ago - looking in the mirror at the person who had given up on the idea that he would be a husband - and maybe one day a father. To turn to my reflection today, I see that the devil had indeed tricked me. He never wanted me to hear the words that have changed my life - her words of truth and love.
Well, God has the final say. I've submitted my free will to his divine will in faith that he will lead and guide me to be the man she needs for the rest of eternity.
I can truly say "I love her" and furthermore, "I'm in love for the first time in my life."
Thank you Father for being greater to me than I could ever be to myself.
fin.
