I've heard a whisper. The sweetest, most gentle sound - as clear as an Egyptian summer evening but as powerful as the whipping winds of a category 7 hurricane. It was as if someone or something knelt down from the heavens and planted the most gentle kiss upon my ears. And in that kiss I found revelation.
Its funny how some people go their whole lives just existing - going from day to day doing no more than living to pay the bills. Okay, maybe its not funny. It's probably horrible, at best. But this is the reality of so many. And while I feel like "favor aint fair," I still wonder why God chose me in the womb (before the womb, I'd bet) to be a change agent in this world. I think back on 16 year old Martin King, Jr. He would just be starting college in a world dipped in the seediest waters of hatred, bigotry, and discrimination. Next, I turn my attention to a not-so-impressionable 20 year old Hindu man name Mohandus Ghandi - whose courage against a monopolizing nation cost him his life. Then my mind shifts to 10 year old Jesus of Nazareth, a Jewish kid who was destined to hang out with the low lives of the world, do miraculous works, but then be betrayed by those he called family. Now, I'm not pompous or conceited enough to believe that my level of impact on this world will be of that magnitude. But to think that God may have a servitude of that caliber waiting for me simply sends chills running down my spine. I'm unnerved by the possibility.
But the irony in revelation is the revelation itself. I know that those chosen for greatness have to die - their sacrifice mimics that of Christ - for there is no sin committed that the world has not witnessed before. In a world where individuals hate what they can not understand, and will quiet difference by death, I feel like my plight may have to be the same.
damn.
Guess we'll have to wait and see what the future holds. I feel the future, though. Its like a sun bathing experience where my naked body is washed in the coolest rays of the sun. It feels cleansing.
So, today I stand bold telling the Lord that whatever this call is, I am answering in obedience. Lead, guide and protect me. I can do it no other way.
Its funny how some people go their whole lives just existing - going from day to day doing no more than living to pay the bills. Okay, maybe its not funny. It's probably horrible, at best. But this is the reality of so many. And while I feel like "favor aint fair," I still wonder why God chose me in the womb (before the womb, I'd bet) to be a change agent in this world. I think back on 16 year old Martin King, Jr. He would just be starting college in a world dipped in the seediest waters of hatred, bigotry, and discrimination. Next, I turn my attention to a not-so-impressionable 20 year old Hindu man name Mohandus Ghandi - whose courage against a monopolizing nation cost him his life. Then my mind shifts to 10 year old Jesus of Nazareth, a Jewish kid who was destined to hang out with the low lives of the world, do miraculous works, but then be betrayed by those he called family. Now, I'm not pompous or conceited enough to believe that my level of impact on this world will be of that magnitude. But to think that God may have a servitude of that caliber waiting for me simply sends chills running down my spine. I'm unnerved by the possibility.
But the irony in revelation is the revelation itself. I know that those chosen for greatness have to die - their sacrifice mimics that of Christ - for there is no sin committed that the world has not witnessed before. In a world where individuals hate what they can not understand, and will quiet difference by death, I feel like my plight may have to be the same.
damn.
Guess we'll have to wait and see what the future holds. I feel the future, though. Its like a sun bathing experience where my naked body is washed in the coolest rays of the sun. It feels cleansing.
So, today I stand bold telling the Lord that whatever this call is, I am answering in obedience. Lead, guide and protect me. I can do it no other way.
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